Miss Tickle

Swish is take a mouthful of diluted divine herbs / swish in mouth briefly

4:15 a.m. Swish with diluted solution

more diluted than the last time which took six hours to wear off

hope this to be a shorter session but you can never tell

the Holy Alkaloid* has a mind of its own

Skaterina had woken up feeling entirely normal !

no pain 

Dora Knob her usual shape

during the chemo session she puffs up, the skin around her becomes taut as it

stretches over the roots that are being drawn in to her

these roots are from the tumors in her mouth

the tongue and whatever else is involved

so now it is all on the go 

*Holy Alkaloid : they are called Divine Herbs

Skaterina does not know what is divine about them

she does not worship a made up god

she knows in religion there is a divinity

she knows there is a fudge called Divinity

there you go 

she slugs down some slippery elm 

nothing today can match with yesterday’s awfulness

she had pain all day

in the tumor, in the tongue

in the shoulders and nontumor neck muscles 

KnitterMe had knitted and listened to music 

knitting too much had added to the pain


Skaterina cdnt relax / even a hot bath didnt help

she had trouble getting comfortable and being able to sleep

she wanted to cry 

she wept

she made a list of all the times in her life she had felt this awful

there were a few

she finds the chemo experience to be depressing and negative inducing

dont want none of that

then !  later after the chemo she went to sleep

when she woke at 4 ish she was amazed at how well she felt

no pain

her body felt loose

while she made a cup of coffee and washed the roaches down the sink 

she did the warmups to the Rites

she did them with gusto !

getting back into bed she thought of a second Swish 

she knows now that embracing the pain is the way of healing

if she can help it all along so much the better

she gets up / dilutes the solution a little more

at 81 she doesnt have the time for long years of healing

the chemo session seems to be “on” 

the Swish has done the trick

herbs absorbed through the gums and other stuff

in the oral cavity (mouth)

tongue indicates chemo through tingling

sllght pain beginning around Dora

little tickle in upper right above jaw hinge

cd that be Miss Tickle ? 

she’s sposeta be in with the heart

you know how tickles get around

they like to tease